"Happy", she replied. "Happy." Good, I thought.
"Happy, happy, happy, happy." she averred.
I was pleased and finished the task of getting her bum cleaned, all the while listening the her chirping good humor. "Happy, happy, happy, happy," she repeated.
Back on her feet, she headed out of the room. As she trundled away the magical words faded into the distance,
"Happy, happy, happy, happy, happy..."
It was a good day.
Sometimes I think I spend too much time taking pictures of the girl. I try to be mindful of being directly involved in her life and interactions, rather than being concerned with getting every moment documented and shared with others. There are just so many contradictions. I feel selfish wheneasch of her small wondrous moments during the course of an ordinary day can only be witnessed by me. Should I write them down for her baby book? Should I put them on the blog? Should I just not think about them and let our lives flow unencumbered by self-reflexivity? Yes to all, no to all.
I think about taking photos this way: I want to have a lot of photos with Evvie and as a family. Things happen, and as morbid as it may seem, I may not be here tomorrow. I remember nothing from my time as a baby, but I want her to remember me. I want Evvie to be able to see how much her parents love her, and how hard we try to make the best choices for her. I want to give her this blog as a book on her 18th birthday so she can see all the struggles, fun, actions and musings of her well-intentioned yet foolish dad & mom.